It's never said enough

Thanksgiving.
Well, it's hard for me to think of things to be thankful for at a time where I feel like everything went painfully wrong. Getting away was the only thing, that felt right. I am thankful for that decision. I am thankful for all the things I saw, people I met. Ruining me kind of actually saved me. It's tough right now, really it is. I don't feel like the joyous person I could be. I am in a dark place, I don't want to, but yeah, maybe I can't switch on the lights on my own this time. And I am thankful, that there are persons around me, who have the ability to make me laugh, even if I don't feel like it. Who care and create and who inspire me, so that I can see, every now and then, that I am still me and that (let's get pathetic) I am not alone in this. And I want to thank you for doing that. Thank you, thank you, thank you.